Since I’m a recent graduate of my high school, I happen to be in a some sort of “reunion” a little too often.
And a major part of the guests of these events consist of other recent graduates, who are quite likely my (then-) friends.
I absolutely adore the idea of getting together with people I haven’t seen for a while, but it’s truly a challenge to see them all at the same time.
Even I, who detests small talks, have found refuge in the good old “so how’s everything” and “yeah, all is well”s.
Please don’t get me wrong. I genuinely love some of these people.
Some of them I have been dying to see for a long time. Some I didn’t even imagine to see ever again, who simply appeared in front of me.
But here’s a “secret” everyone actually knows:
This is life.
And every individual’s life is completely separate from the other.
And there are only a handful of meeting points, and we waste them regretlessly on the quick “So, how’s it going?”s
“Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table.”
On the rare chance that I do meet new people at these events, they too disappear in this blurry little night of “reminiscing” and that’s that.
They become something to shortly smile about for the next month.
After that, they’re the blur themselves.
I also feel like, that, I am forgetting how to behave at these things.
Was I really that good at handling medium-sized crowds before, or was it just that the crowds were not that crowded at all?
As you may notice, I tonight has left me perplexed with its speed; and the beer certainly is not helping.
2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to
Dear WordPressers, this is my diary;
And I don’t know what these words amount to, but they are all that I am.
Even when they are painfully confusing.